Yeah. I just prntscrned this. Message below was like a yr ago. My ex. Askig me o marry him and nao nangangliwa na. Salamat kuya sa answer, yan din sabi ng friend ko. Hahaha sana iwasan na ng lahat.

I had the best guy ever, then he died. I had the okay guy, but then again he is unfaithful. Sometimes its better just to play around and not have serious relationships. And thats exactly hat im goin to do nao.

Ang sakit talaga. Iiwan na talaga kita. I never thought mararanasan ko na naman to. Lahat ba ng lalaki nangangaliwa?

It was always behind my back. Ever since. Ayoko na talaga magkarelationship. If i didnt caught you red handed di ka aamin eh. Di ka naman actually umamin. Di niya alam may gf ka. Inaaya mo lumabas. Sabi mo takas siya. Ikaw ang kumuha ng numbet niya. Sinungaling ka pala. Ngaun ko lang nalaman. Pagod na ako. Sobrang nasaktan ako. Aaminin ko an diyo na mahal kiya. Pero nasaktan na ako. And thats enough to stop this. Maybe i dont deserve you. You were too sweet anyway, sweet but nangangaliwa. Fuck this. I need to get this out of my system. Ill drink, get busy and flirt. Just like you did. Thankyou for hurting me. I was stupid to stay rin naman eh.

Kasi sabi nila ggraduate rin ako.

Nakakasawa. Eh ayaw ko na talaga sayo? Isa na lang ang reason kung bakit kita kinakausap. Hey I tried.

Alam mo yung mukang tanga? Hahaha. I miss letran

Im so proud babe.

Oh gosh. I cant sleep. Superman, where are you? Damsel in distress hereee. Duuuuh :))

Please? Huh! When i was still a carefreegreedybetch, that was my fave line. I never really cared. Like duh, i dont have time for this. I always think that i dont have to deal with assholes, because I have my own life and priorities ( which is alcohol, cigs,tropa back then).

Now, i’m engaged with something i know i’m capable of surpassing. However in able for me to move forward, i will need help. As much as i want to do it on my own, i just cant. So, no choice left, i asked for help.

“i’ll help. Trust me”
“in time, i’ll change promise”
“im so sorry, dont leave me”
“i love you”

Those were the phrases i hear a lot from him. Srsly, i cant do this anymore. I want to go back to when i dont even give a fuck. However, i cannot. I fell in love. I am now numbed of logic and common sense.

How many times could you give up with someone you truly love? Am i the only one in love? Till when will i have to take this loneliness?

I want someone. I realized that mr. Brightside isnt my type of guy. He is positive in a nonsense way.